just realize one thing today. stress makes me ppl mean!
Monday, 11 May 2009
I am very drunk and confused right now. God knows what I am doing. at least, I know for the first time in my life, I am going the right way for something. but why, why i feel so bitter inside? why am I crying? Am I not over him? What do I want from myself?! am i going crazy?!
Sunday, 03 May 2009
I went out with a guy today. We had dinner, we watched a movie.
For the first time, I didn't feel a thing. The moment he touched my hand, your image ran through my head. It reminded me of your hand. Warm. My thoughts froze.
I think I am really dead inside. My heart wouldn't open to anyone again. If you can see through me, you would see me hiding inside at the corner, terrified to reach any hands that try to pull me out of this dark world.
"Who can save you? tell me who can save you?" my friend asked me yesterday. I didn't answer him. I know the answer clearly more than anyone. But nobody needs to know.
"....I close my eyes Only for a moment and the moment's gone All my dreams Pass before my eyes with curiosity
Dust in the wind All they are is just dust in the wind..."
midnight. you came online, drunk. said words that doesn't make any sense anymore. said things that doesn't matter anymore. you laughed, you sorrowed, you apologized. only when you are drunk, you are not afraid to face me. only when you are not sober, you tell me the words that you will never say.
If we both feel bitter. Then why are we being apart?
Saturday, 02 May 2009
"...No one said life won't be hard No one said it makes any sense I know The sun to shine and the rain to fall You need someone to miss you No matter where you go...
You said: just go sit in a bar and do nothing, baby I want you home, please come home. And then the plane lights started blinking to the beat of the song I was listening to when I was thinking of you..."
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